It’s That Time of The Year Again

The Gay Cat did a round of night shift after christmas and immediately, doubts were seeded in her. Can she survive another year in this place? Why does she want to survive or stay in this place? What is she aiming for? Is she truly satisfied? Why is she forcing herself to be optimistic?

Many questions and yet, only one answer kept surfacing…..’no regrets’ TGC does not want to regret. Ironically though, by questioning herself, it leads to thoughts of regret. 

TGC took the next two days to recover from her night shift to reflect on herself so far and also, to come up with some new year’s resolutions.

Sadly, they seem to be the same ones as before:

1) Be happy and healthy

2) Try a marathon

3) Be holier

4) Be spontaneous

5) Be more outgoing but responsible

6) Meet more new friends

7) Spend more quality time with family

Learn something new

9) Find love?

10) Save $$

Sighs, it seems like a waste of time for TGC to even come up with resolutions knowing that they’d be broken or left unfulfilled every year. 

The hardest to obtain would be the last two goals. Where do TGC even start? 

After all these years, TGC has found that she is happiest at home, with a tub of ice cream and her DVDs/laptop. Her favourite spot in the house is her room or the front patio(on rainy days). She has never found herself in need of much friends or communication with the outside world. So, it is no wonder she does not miss being in a relationship or in other people’s company either.

TGC also reflected on the state of her social life and found that though she has made many new friends, she has still not found the need to hang out with them every single day, moment or time. She can live without them, it seems. 

Love, what is that to TGC? Crushes still exists but TGC has matured enough or rather, she finds it too troublesome to think about it more than the few seconds to do anything about it. TGC feels safe in her own little world/coccoon filled with fluff and safety. Romance or love takes too much time. 

In conclusion, TGC has found herself in a situation where the Japanese call such women-’himono onna’ ! Sighs. TGC is sure there are himono otokus too but, for a women, it is the worst and there is nothing TGC wants to do about to change….so far. 

So TGC wishes everyone Happy New Year 2009, it’ll be the same as 2008!

Season Joys

All throughout the years, there is only one season and festival that The Gay Cat truly love. It is the season of giving, the season of joy, the Christmas season.

Christmas is celebrated throughout the world for twelve days, in December. In other parts of the western world, it is a winter season with snow, hail and cold. In sunny Singapore, it is the rainy and dark season. A season that suits TGC perfectly. 

Christmas is a time when TGC always enjoys and have good memories of. 

Presents used to major prominently when TGC was much, much younger. Then, it was about spending time with friends and family that TGC truly loved. 

This year, TGC will be spending it with family and friends and, hopefully her wishes will come true. 

Friday Nite Out

The Gay Cat had the weirdest Friday night outing ever. It was a night out filled with wonderful suckling pigs….steamed garoupas, hokkien singers, singing professor and sisters. Surreal.

Sometimes it is better not to know too much about your superiors because then, you’d be in a position like TGC where she’d have to re-arrange her thinking about them. 

The night ended early and TGC found herself with some lonesome time on the train home when a group of young people came aboard. 

Two guys and two girls. One of the guy, who looked to be in his early twenties, was yakking non-stop about himself. One of the girls looked absolutely bored and was obviously stoning away, however the other girl actually encouraged the chatty guy to talk more about himself. 

Thankfully the girls alighted earlier and then the other silent guy asked his friend, “what the hell were you talking about? That was the most rubbish I heard from you.” 

Chatty guy, ” I dunno, I just wanted to see if they knew what I was talking about.” 

Silent guy, ” Area 51? You talked about area 51 to them? Even I don’t know what you’re saying,” 

Haha TGC wanted to laugh aloud. It was painfully obvious that chatty guy was trying to impress the girls however, his mouth ran off. 

TGC wonders why is it that guys who are out to impress the feminine side always tend to boast about stuff or about themselves? Its always about ME…ME…ME.

TGC had time to ponder this on her way home and concluded that the guy who’d impress her the most would be someone who was comfortable in a shared silence, a guy who wanted to know what the girl was thinking about right then and there, a guy who shared little subtle touches and smiles with no words needed-especially on a crowded train. 

However, images of the singing professor kept intruding in her thoughts….singing hokkien songs no less.